Waving good bye to the kid I knew, I walked back for a bit of fresh air to overcome the fact that I couldn’t go where the kid was. Thoughts dissolved as I heard my cell beep to a text message, making me realize I was supposed to be going out. Waiting patiently by the side walk for my ride, seeing the familiar face I saw on weekends made me smile coz I knew it was going to be fun. Lost in thoughts I stared outside the window mumbling back to the questions of my familiar weekend face saying I couldn’t go where the child was, and the reply just went, its ok you can go next week... Say hello and be back, enjoy the moment.
Sitting in that auto, with no clue about where I was heading nerves clenched in me since going out was not my cup of tea. Walking into the dark but colorfully light place I searched for familiar faces knowing I wouldn’t find any, said ‘Hi’ to the friends of the familiar face and I went numb, words seemed to be a strange phenomenon and I just stared, yes/no was all I could reply to questions of concern I was comfortable but with no words to reply back. The music was on and I could see all of them just grooving to the music and me let go of groove couldn’t move from where I was. This was me all excited about dancing and with a chance in hand I was numb. People always made me silent as a literally dumb person and that was exactly what I was, I stared at them and then just gave way, the nerves just loosened and I enjoyed watching them groove and everyone around just enjoy.
Went out into the terrace for fresh air, and the old buddies were catching up with each other. I wandered off like a child into the woods not knowing what to expect at the other end, to the edge of the terrace. Gazing out into the night, from one of the prominent buildings to see the bright city lights shining was intriguing for the fact that it does captivate your imagination, beautiful as nature can be, the man made city lights does shine enough to intrigue you. To realize the fact that in every thing that we see around us, beauty is in them waiting to be unlocked with the keys of your eyes, your imaginations. Standing there on day that was particularly hotter than the rest, the evening which turned out a cooler atmosphere that the wind blew into your hair caressing it as much as tangling it, watching the greenery mixed with the sky scrappers which light up the dark blue sky I stood there in amazement and bewilderment.
The sky in its violet majesty with the stars shining on me, the big city lights shining as it was their night and not the people or the buildings it had to always focus on, and the leaves swaying to hum of the wind and occasional movement of luxurious cars, reminding this was a big city, getting back in, just let myself move around, few minutes into it and I was having fun not bothering who was staring.
That day was awesome, roaming the whole morning, meeting new people going numb around them, and then having fun with them, watching the city lights, grooving to the music.
One of the memorable nights of independent young adult life.
