Goldilocks reinvented

I am goin to tell you the story of Goldilocks.. in a very differnt way...
and Goldilocks grew up .. she kinda had her wirings redone u knw so that she would'nt mess herself up .. u knw not get lost stuff n all .. and when it was she turned out to be one messed up... person... though she didnt realize it.. or that even if she realized it she didnt acknowledge it...
When she was a kid.. if she got lost by accident.. because of her loose wirings.. decided to get lost on purpose....
So in the wild woods.. wandering.... all by herself.....
Well wandering by herself.. was considered hideousity by ppl . .. ALone in the woods..
but the woods was interesting.. it was filled to new stuff to discover, every turn had a whole new world opeing... the colors were different and the sky held so much beauty to discover yet...
and she found this clearing in the woods.. a one in which the butterflies flocked ... a whole to be exact.. and u cud stare at it all day long and nobody would interrupt in between...
it was haven... and again she kept discovering many more interesting things...
she realised that she was not the only person out there.. once while wandering she met one of the teddy bears.. and with them was this red-indian.. with a strange indian stuff all over...
who invited her to the POW WOW, very Indian.. but Goldilocks had it mind that she would never go to anyplace like tat.. because her pappa had told her never to enter unknown territories..
But since
....
to be continued

b4n

Its nice meeting people but when they leave its hard...
I mean i.e only when those people become more than people to you, they become your friends..
u knw the ones who shows up when u need them.. who can keep ur head in equilibrium when ur goin nuts.. the one u can say anything to .. and knw they'd understand.. and specially when ur kinda sstuck being with urself forever.. more like I,Me, Myself.. and these ppl barge in by accident.. to me.. and u find these lil diamonds in the crap that u r .. and then u keep them.. enjoy those lil things.. and then somebody shows up saying its thiers.. and u ve gotto give them back.. and u fell lousy... or maybe ,,, ye whatever..

U knw.. if ever seen.. wild thornberries.. in one of the episodes... one kid in it says.. in our language therez no word for bye.. the only thing we say is
"see you later/soon"
So keeping that in mind.. gotto be cheerful. you knw u ll meet em soon.. and maybe thats where destiny calls them.. but u can meet em..
I mean hope is wat keeps the human race going...
So though one wud make new frnds... the old ones can never be replaced..
they d still have thier place..
always there to reclaim :)

So for now adios, seinarra.. later.. .

lost in some world .. searching for answers, reaching crossroads and not knowing where to turn...but I know it when i see it ill know.. .. that s the answer.. :)
Its a nice thing about life i guess, each phase new challenges to over come... and maybe for now.. u r in a mess... but then i've heard tat my grandma used to say "if there is a night there surely is day" and i guess its the hope for the day... the joy tat the light will come and u will be able to see is what makes u want to move on in life.. and not want to stay in the same place forever.. every day is going to be different... something new is waiting..
But the wait sucks big time.. but ye... its the wait.. tat makes u a person... i guess.. so long time from now when u look back.. u r the person u rcoz u made those choices.. the choices to stay strong during the wait....

Loosin my religion /:)

well friday again... got wrk.. but just coz its friday im doin nothin.. PRODUCTIVE..
so wazz new .... I dont knw.. all of a sudden my brain just went blank.. not tat it z always full... atleast there was something..
was thinkin of this lil thing u knw "if u have somethin in mind u gotto say it"
mmmh.. im very bad at.. it .. if i ve got somethin in mind i expect the other person to read my mind.. so i guess the basic thing bout bein around me is u gotto learn to read my mind lol i donno..
na.... i think i knw when to open my mouth i guess... i kinda a believe wat is for me will come to me no matter wat i do... ye u gotto do wat u gotto .. but there are time you really don knw wat to do...
so lay back realx.. i m not sure if tats the best thing to resort to.. well atleast for now i gotto stay like tat...

some lyrics i kinda liked a lot

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough

bein a free bird .. can coz ppl to think or rather made me think...
a frnd asked me whether i go to church coz i want to or is it just coz i've done it all my life.. and i ansered.. its coz ive done it all my life... i donno wat made me say it...mmh maybe, i was too dumbfounded by the person lol...but that aint the truth
its coz i want to.. go... coz i think its important.. why is it important...
well many reasons..
I dont think tat all tat we see came just by evolving... there had to be some kinda life to evolve from... and its certain to me.. tat, there somebody who cared for the whole world/universe.....
and goin to church is just an act of sayin hi.. to him.. givin the best i have to him... the first day of the week.. sayin... tks...sayin i remeber u... and i believe he is my father and so.. just doin the duty of a daughter i guess.. not tat is very great.. but i knw.. dad's always luks at his kids.. with love.. so because of it...

The song..

Well how to start... its just as the title... am too full.. making me fall of my chair... too much of everything is not good .. yea but no use...
when u eat .. wat u like the best ..... u forget everything
listening to a nice lullabye...

SLEEP!! is all i can think of...
or maybe not there are other things running thru my head,,
when u r frustrated there is a lot u wanna do .. so words just flows...
but when ur head is empty words dont flow... its just "voidness" (dont think tats a word')
anyhow..

This is the lyrics of song very dear to me... kinda customized it to what i like of it the most
why do i like it so much... still not very sure.. is this related to me .. ye/no.. lol
heard this song from a stranger.. still a stranger to the truth....

"And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When every thing's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive"

I just want you to know who I am

Come to think of it.. things which we think are the most important to us right now.. years later will just turn out to be one of our jokes...
or so i think ... maybe its the most biggest blunder you have committed or the most important achievement...
well i guess i'll consider this song years later just as another joke .. or will it be a treasured memory.. well the decision is mine .. whether it should be a joke or a treasure.. but i dont think i ll make the decision but wait to see wat me doin nothin can lead to..
funny is'nt it.. how ppl think.. or to round it to how it think...

This is the first song i kinda sang in public.. aaw .. was just thinkin bout the way i sang it.. was totally into it... he he... wonder what were the people next to me thinking... I hope they didnt want to leave their seats.. coz i could sound so amazing at times...u'll just want to hold on to ur seat or rather clench to it...
I like it so much cud sing it the whole time..
conditions apply: if nobodyz around..

Remember the time i was all excited in between the books in landmark.. after goin to a coffe shop i.e .. guess it was coffee shop experience tat made it even more exciting...
this song was playing and i went all awww..... singinin a book store is wayyyy different than a karaoke place...specially if ur standing next to the books from where u can learn somethin like computer organization n architecture.. all branios... ye.. makes me run... it was an accident me bein there...

this song.. and me.. absolutely not the rite combination. if ppl wanna stay where they are... lol

On the brighter side of life...

As all kids are very anxious and interested with new toys...
im kinda very interested with my new play thingie.. bloggin
so spillin my head out again...

Im the kinda person who keeps track of daily stuff in a diary... this thins fun anyhow...

well wat i so happy bout all of a sudden... ye as usual i lost of track of myself again

ye the fact that i am stranded here at one place... the thing is i need to move on, but i wont coz i enjoy the serenity of this.. but its dangerous for me .. maybe not now but later.. still i wont move on.. taking the step of asking as to whether there is somethin in for me in this place ... is hard.. maybe coz tats the way i am.. i dont confront ppl with question to which answers i dont know.. its like takin a blind step.. its not that i am scared of the answer which i wouldnt want to hear .. rather scared of the things i want to hear...

Being stuck in one place .. can be crampy sometimes.. but the person tat i am .. im enjoyin as well as dreading it.. wishin i had'nt seen this place.. so i wouldnt wish for it..
Ignorance is bliss.. yea maybe tat in a more appropriate way..

But then for some reason i kinda believe tat.. what is for me will come my way no matter what... but then mus'nt i be trying for it.... ye its like i knw the question and answer to most questions i have.. but just not doin anythin bout it..

I seriously hope i dont regret this... :(

Meticulous?!!

My very first blog...

Note: I am writin this while i am supposed to fixin a bug in this program written even before I was born.... Did i succeed in it.. well the answer is definetly no.. and the fact today being a friday adds to the fact that i've stopped trying.. have been tryin to fix it for 2 days now.. but no hope.. or rather i dont want to do it.... now..

Just want to finish the day and move off to this special place called the weekend... technically it aint a place ... but ye special state of ur mind rather my head..
why do i desperately need this thing called weekend... I was kinda happy with weekdays.. not long ago that was...

i was eager to do all sorts of experiments with chemicals which used to smell like rotten eggs,, and all the blastin from the teachers.. tat we had'nt actually read through the experiment.. i mean its an experiment u experiment with it.. tats was wat made it fun... we had to stand in b\w all those stinkin fumes with no airconditionin or fans with no complaints... acid drippin ye nobody cared rather it was fun... and then goin nuts bout the teachers who always said in chemistry u need to be accurate instead of precise or precise instead of accurate.. im not sure of it even now... and we were like yea.. what ever.. then this one time.. we kinda manipulated our wat metry was it again... oh ye it was titrations .. titration values.. and straight away we were caught .. kinda expected a blast but the teacher was like .. if u steal u need to knw how to stand without being caught as well.. tat was'nt the response expected ..it was fun those days....
20 bucks per week was all i used to get.. it was sufficient and was happy...

Here i am now seated in an air conditioned room... with all of the best facilities at my finger tip.. this place called my work place.. and i want to run from it.. why?? even i dont know.. not satisfied... not exactly.. I like the independant life.. which this job sustains.. I mean. I think its more of the grass is greener on the othe side phenomenon..
why can i just enjoy wat i got .. instead of searching all the time..
take time to enjoy now rather than to cirb....
ye then preachin is always easier than practising.. which i used to preach to my dad.. but not exactly the distinction holder in tat...
ye the best part of this work place thing is tat... i've got real gud buddies.. who assume tat im still stuck in kindergarden.. ye i can live with .. wouldnt mind i guess.. ;)
doin this in the middle of wrk.. o my!!

the air-conditionin is killin me.. i m more of the warm blooded ones who turn cold real quick and it can coz... a real hell of trouble .... like me ending up in a hospital.. after planin a real gud trip to meghadot.. (not sure how itz spelled).. tat was 15 mins after the planin sessions...

In which way is meticulous related to all of this /:) any clues... :D